The crispness of the fall air was a dead give away to what lie in store for me today.
The bus has come and gone to carry my babes away. Most parents are joyful and happy today, not me. I just put on a good face. We try to get our children closer to the door every day by teaching them about life, money and other things. But the reality of the season, is rough on this mother’s heart.
Mimi, my other mom, says there is nothing sadder than a kindergartner’s face in a school bus window leaving your driveway. A profound statement, isn’t it? The only thing I’ve found sadder is a first and a fourth grader’s face, leaving in a bus window. Next year, with any luck, it will topped by a second and fifth grader’s face, and so on.
The past ten years have been intense. Grams, my mom, has always wished that the intensity found in the season of raising a family could be spread out over a lifetime, in order to enjoy it more. But alas, my friends, this isn’t God’s design. So today I sip my coffee while I pet a couple of silly kittens and wonder…Where do I go from here?
Who am I separate from my kids? A child of God. Hallelujah ! Ben’s wife (what a blessing). This home’s economics expert (thanks to Dave Ramsey). A runner (well kinda). A bluegrass rhythm guitarist (cough cough). A good neighbor and friend (hopefully). And a writer of simple things (thanks for reading).
Glory be. In a few seconds I’ve come up with relationships that need nurturing, budgets to balance, meals to plan, miles to run, an old dusty guitar that needs struming and a keyboard needing stokes. In a few seconds I’ve made myself feel better about this new season in my life by counting my blessings and drinking in the goodness of change. Life, in what ever season, is good isn’t it?
What season of life are you in?
Simply!
Sis
Tags: back to school, empty nest, first day of school, letting go of your children, life is good, seasons of life, simple reflections, who am i
I had forgotten about saying that about the kindergartener’s face in the bus window, but boy does that bring back memories! Makes you feel kind of lost doesn’t it?
I am in the new motherhood season where everythign is new and fun and speeds by too fast.
That gives me a lump in my throat, Sis. But you know, to be excited and smitten with life in each season is a blessing that I hope to teach my babies. I have adored new babies, cherished toddlers, and laughed at “big kids.” I’m amazed at their accomplishments, big and small. I have no doubt I will watch them as teenagers in bewildered joy.
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